Hi, guys. Lots of things have happened. In sum:

Still don't have a job. I am okay with this.

Gaming a lot, writing a lot, RPing like a boss, doing well in my studies, dealing with stupid classmates.

Switched ISPs to something faster. This is about the only reason why I'm finally doing personal LJ things - my old connection just couldn't load all the stuff going on on my flist, and I couldn't download doujin/anime anyway, so there wasn't a point. Coming back now that I have the means.

Feeling better about myself and the direction I'm going in, overall. Things will only get better from here on, with luck.

How have all of you been? Apologies: I suck at keeping up with you folks these days. You're welcome to scold me through the usual means. As a sort of peace offering, have some fics:


GINTAMA. // A lover as faithful as guilt.
GINTAMA. // Something's Burning: Fate could create you and I.
GINTAMA. // Something's Burning: Open up and let me inside.
GINTAMA. // Something's Burning: Errands and affairs.
GINTAMA. // Something's Burning: Deny, deny, deny.
GINTAMA. // Something's Burning: Regarder la lumiere
GINTAMA. // Something's Burning: Nautical dawn.
GINTAMA. // Something's Burning: I will be the water for your thirst.
GINTAMA. // Something's Burning: Epilogue.




Fandom bias, thy name is Gintama.

Registration, by the way, was incredibly tedious. I won't say 'hell' because that would be exaggerating the entire exercise, but let's just say I left school that afternoon murderous. Interestingly enough, this is the first time I finished registering in one day since I started my master's degree. That's got to count for something, right?

Last weekend of 'freedom' was spent with friends on Saturday, and family on Sunday. Went to my older brother's new place: it's a townhouse that's a stone's throw away from Holy Spirit. It was abymssally hot and I was terribly sleepy, but few things beat the joy of chilling out with your parents, your brothers and your sisters-in-law with the kids running around, eating Ferrero Rocher and talking about nothing at all.

My cat's been my only real company at home during the day, and my younger brother swings by in the evening to do work. His laptop finally gave out on him, so he doesn't have much of a choice. Been falling asleep to the sound of him working these past few days. Going abroad appears to have fixed my sleeping schedule: I don't stay up at ungodly hours, and I tend to wake up with the dawn.

Just had my first of two classes - no formal lecture, of course, just some questions and a bit of small talk. Spent more of my time catching up with a colleague, who gave me some interesting news. I've missed her a lot, I realize, but I haven't been very good with people these days. She hasn't been either, though, and we said as much to each other. There's some camaraderie to be found in being disconnected, then connecting with people who decided to disconnect the way you did for a while.

Won't be on campus again until Saturday, if I have any say in it. Home's just too comfortable these days.

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Been wrestling with a general feeling of uselessness. Sure, I'm free and yes, it's wonderful, but I don't have a job, and after three years of earning it's kind of hard to fall back on that. My friends all appear to be moving ahead too, which doesn't really help.

Such as it is. I'll get on my feet again eventually. In the meantime, I ought to enjoy my break because I doubt that I'll get another one after this is finished.

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I'd normally let an issue like this resolve itself and not chip in my two cents unless prompted to, but this debate on the RH Bill is becoming ridiculous. The Ruling Powers down hear (read: the Philippine Catholic Church) have it in their heads that they're waging a war against heathen, and the flock MUST obey them if they are to save their souls.

We were made to pray "for the sanctity of the Church" and "the well-being of all families" against the RH bill during last Sunday's service. Suffice to say, I did not kneel, and I did not pray at all. I believe I was the only one.

Perhaps I will stand next time. I can't walk out - it'll break my parents' hearts, and they are the only reason why I continue to suffer through Mass - but I can resist in my own way.

For any of you bishops in the audience, this is how I live my faith. Fucking deal with it. And no, you can't excommunicate me. I'd sure as hell like to see you try.

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For the interested: I chronicled my entire trip abroad. I've listed down the entries here in chronological order:

► Vancouver, May 5
► Vancouver, May 6
► Vancouver, May 7
► Vancouver, May 8
► Vancouver, May 9-10
► Toronto, May 11-13
► Toronto and New York, May 14-19
► New York and Washington D.C., May 20-22
► Washington D.C., May 23-26
► Washington D.C./New York again/Toronto again, May 26-31
► Vancouver again and coming home, June 1-5

No pictures yet. I'll have to sit down a while and sift through them before I show anything off.

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Now, for the mandatory fic dump.

► DEVIL SUMMONER. // From blossom to dusty blossom.
► SUIKODEN TIERKREIS. // Everybody knows I hate you except you.
► SUIKODEN TIEKRKREIS. // Tireless hunger in your eyes.
► METAL GEAR SOLID 4. // Take care of all our dreams.
► GINTAMA. // We outgrow love like other things.
► FULL METAL ALCHEMIST. // Don't trust a statistic you didn't fake yourself.

Got a lot of backlog, but my activities on LJ and my own need to catch up with downloads keeps me from posting them up in a timely fashion, or working on others.

Has it been a while, or has it been a while? It's been crazy down here, and I've pretty much moved all of my activity unto plurk these days, due to soul_campaign and, well. Sheer laziness, really.

You all haven't gotten rid of me just yet, though. I get assaulted, at random, by the sudden need to fix my little internet hovels on a regular basis. For those of you who may not even remember me, hi, hello, this is Kae/Pam/Pammu/Pammeth, signing in, once again.

I know I ought to be making a lengthier update, given how long it's been and everything that has happened, but I'm not one for really writing out what goes on in my life at length over the internet anymore. This is either because I'm growing older, I'm getting busier, I'm doing a whole bunch of OTHER things all at once or it's just been crazy and my habits are changing because of it. Still, a few points of information:

I'm back from Singapore. Learned a lot on the trip, deepened my ties with the people over there, but I don't think I ever want to do something like that again. This isn't the place to really talk about exactly what happened to me, but let's just say that all around, people were crappy.

Been on the retreat for personal reasons. I sort of... shut down on the internet end in the middle of March, and I haven't quite gone out of hiding yet, as many of my RP buddies have noticed. My entire experience in Singapore and a few unrelated, isolated incidents on the personal front have gotten me seriously thinking about what I want to do with my life, along with the relationships I have with people in general, the state of my research and my job, and the stuff that I truly want to be doing, in spite of all the interferance. Suffice to say, the shut down has allowed me to reconnect with folks I haven't spoken to or seen in a while, and beyond that? I think it's helping.

Did I mention that my internet connection has become even crappier since I came home? That actually contributes a lot to my overall feeling of disconnection, actually, since I end up flipping tables at the mere thought of puttering around and checking up on things and people since I rarely get anywhere with it.

I'll have to be back in gear by June, though, and I know I owe more than a few people an explanation for my decision to hide. When it comes, then.

The family's doing well, all things considered. To make a long story short, it has been... interesting, in the Punzalan household. Things are changing in ways I cannot begin to describe, and it is part of the reason why I've sort of withdrawn from the usual places outside of plurk. Plurk is easy for me, see. Connectivity without too much of the pressure, terrible as that might sound.

Going out on another trip. This will likely be the last trip I will ever take, all expenses paid, with my parents. They are getting older, things are getting more expensive and business is getting harder. Dad says that this is his last 'gift' to me and my little bro, since, being the youngest in the family, we were never able to travel as much as our siblings were. Paolo won't be on this one for that precise reason.

Will be out for the entirety of May and June, then it's back to the school and research grind.

Now, for internet things.


Friends Cut, All Around;


Did some major cleaning up of the flist to ditch old fangirl things, streamline my feed and make sure I actually see the entries that matter on the few times that I check back here (because I have a feeling I'll keep dropping out of this Regularly Checking LJ habit more and more as the months pass), so I've also removed a lot of people from my list.

Please note that you're free to remove me as well, especially if you don't even remember why you've got me friended in the first place. Nothing personal: we're all just moving on.

Oh yeah. Have some fics, guys.


fic pimpage
► FINAL FANTASY 13. // And light becomes what it touches.
► SENGOKU BASARA. // Mine is a crazy heart / what has it to fear?
► SOUL EATER. // Unclench your floodgates
► SOUL CAMPAIGN RP. // Trusting strangers
► SOUL CAMPAIGN RP. // These are the days of miracle and wonder.
► SOUL CAMPAIGN RP. // Men are born for games.

It's Christmas Eve for some of you and Christmas Day for the folks down here, so:

HAPPY HOLIDAYS! ♪



MASTER LIST OF CHRISTMAS GIFT FICS

+ AIR GEAR. Feral child raised by puppets. (for lyra_star)
+ BLACK LAGOON. (for annotate)
+ BLEACH. Questions that never breathe. (for mlina)
+ COWBOY BEBOP. Love me little, love me long. (for icecream_parade)
+ DARKER THAN BLACK. Dreams of the impossible. (for _sabriel)
+ DEVIL MAY CRY. Wine not found. (for salavin)
+ FULL METAL ALCHEMIST. I’ve squandered all these years. (for questofdreams and tasogareika)
+ GINTAMA. Stop whispering; start shouting. (for nonartisan)
+ HOUSE M.D. I know it well, the nakedness of truth. (for braidedstars)
+ HUNTER X HUNTER. The proof of living that you gave me. (for kye_kestrel)
+ KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN! And may tomorrow be wonderful too. (for umarekawareru)
+ KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN! Lay me down in a field of flame and heather. (for kasugai_gummie)
+ KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN! Snow falling on cedars. (for audiopain and tyreling)
+ KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN! The rope to the ivory tower. (for starkissed)
+ KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN! The sun of life's morning. (for signifies)
+ KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN! We are but weaklings pretending to be tough. (for rodickparker)
+ KINGDOM HEARTS. Something pure and out of my hands. (for g3ssh0ku)
+ METAL GEAR SOLID. Morning glories make a roof. (for mushroom18)
+ OOKIKU FURIKABUTTE. No dust upon the furniture of love. (for istrill)
+ OOKIKU FURIKABUTTE. Ownership of such fragile devices. (for tsunekipanda, special flag to factorielle)
+ RPG FANFICTION: KHR - PUBLISHING IS SERIOUS BUSINESS. All the little things. (for redmoonmurder)
+ RPG FANFICTION: KHR - PUBLISHING IS SERIOUS BUSINESS. Lost in a dream from which I can’t awaken. (for desumethis and akaru_hana)
+ RPG FANFICTION: THE SKYTIDES. And he chants the hate of a million years. (for schmot_gurl)
+ RPG FANFICTION: THE SKYTIDES. Under the shade of flowers. (for fae_of_the_rose)
+ SOUL EATER. Xanadu. (for foxarashi)
+ SUIKODEN II. I thought I'd stop and say hello. (for jusrecht)
+ SUIKODEN II. Instruction through interpretative dance. (for osmalic)
+ SUIKODEN TIERKREIS. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. (for factorielle)
+ THE WORLD ENDS WITH YOU. I believe in peace, b*tch. (for mienaihoshi, special flag to factorielle)
+ XENOGEARS. In praise of surfaces. (for ukefied)


Everything is up on stitchedophelia, as always!

Still working on my gifts for psychoshoujo and yukitsu. Sob, those ones take a lot more time and thought. ;^;

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I also want to pimp out the wonderful things that people posted for me!

SenBasa: Kojuurou Masamune x Date Masamune from kasugai_gummie!
KHR: 1896 from desumethis!
TST: 691896 and the Vongola from signifies!
KHR: D6918 from lyra_star!

Kudos as well to audiopain, who gave me an FST for Return on Investment and scanned a lovely 1880 doujin for me. And then to mushroom18, who drew me giftart for Flik & Viktor! *A*



Much love to all of you, your friends and your families. ♥♥♥