the kangaroo communique --> back-up style!

izkariote → thedovetailor @ dw

I'm jumping ship on the personal blogging end and moving over to Dreamwidth.

This account will stay live, as a place for me to cross-post stuff from my actual blog whenever necessary. If you have a DW account and you're interested in adding me, you're welcome to join me over at thedovetailor.

It's been interesting, LJ, but I think it's time for a change.

Has it been a while, or has it been a while? It's been crazy down here, and I've pretty much moved all of my activity unto plurk these days, due to soul_campaign and, well. Sheer laziness, really.

You all haven't gotten rid of me just yet, though. I get assaulted, at random, by the sudden need to fix my little internet hovels on a regular basis. For those of you who may not even remember me, hi, hello, this is Kae/Pam/Pammu/Pammeth, signing in, once again.

I know I ought to be making a lengthier update, given how long it's been and everything that has happened, but I'm not one for really writing out what goes on in my life at length over the internet anymore. This is either because I'm growing older, I'm getting busier, I'm doing a whole bunch of OTHER things all at once or it's just been crazy and my habits are changing because of it. Still, a few points of information:

I'm back from Singapore. Learned a lot on the trip, deepened my ties with the people over there, but I don't think I ever want to do something like that again. This isn't the place to really talk about exactly what happened to me, but let's just say that all around, people were crappy.

Been on the retreat for personal reasons. I sort of... shut down on the internet end in the middle of March, and I haven't quite gone out of hiding yet, as many of my RP buddies have noticed. My entire experience in Singapore and a few unrelated, isolated incidents on the personal front have gotten me seriously thinking about what I want to do with my life, along with the relationships I have with people in general, the state of my research and my job, and the stuff that I truly want to be doing, in spite of all the interferance. Suffice to say, the shut down has allowed me to reconnect with folks I haven't spoken to or seen in a while, and beyond that? I think it's helping.

Did I mention that my internet connection has become even crappier since I came home? That actually contributes a lot to my overall feeling of disconnection, actually, since I end up flipping tables at the mere thought of puttering around and checking up on things and people since I rarely get anywhere with it.

I'll have to be back in gear by June, though, and I know I owe more than a few people an explanation for my decision to hide. When it comes, then.

The family's doing well, all things considered. To make a long story short, it has been... interesting, in the Punzalan household. Things are changing in ways I cannot begin to describe, and it is part of the reason why I've sort of withdrawn from the usual places outside of plurk. Plurk is easy for me, see. Connectivity without too much of the pressure, terrible as that might sound.

Going out on another trip. This will likely be the last trip I will ever take, all expenses paid, with my parents. They are getting older, things are getting more expensive and business is getting harder. Dad says that this is his last 'gift' to me and my little bro, since, being the youngest in the family, we were never able to travel as much as our siblings were. Paolo won't be on this one for that precise reason.

Will be out for the entirety of May and June, then it's back to the school and research grind.

Now, for internet things.


Friends Cut, All Around;


Did some major cleaning up of the flist to ditch old fangirl things, streamline my feed and make sure I actually see the entries that matter on the few times that I check back here (because I have a feeling I'll keep dropping out of this Regularly Checking LJ habit more and more as the months pass), so I've also removed a lot of people from my list.

Please note that you're free to remove me as well, especially if you don't even remember why you've got me friended in the first place. Nothing personal: we're all just moving on.

Oh yeah. Have some fics, guys.


fic pimpage
► FINAL FANTASY 13. // And light becomes what it touches.
► SENGOKU BASARA. // Mine is a crazy heart / what has it to fear?
► SOUL EATER. // Unclench your floodgates
► SOUL CAMPAIGN RP. // Trusting strangers
► SOUL CAMPAIGN RP. // These are the days of miracle and wonder.
► SOUL CAMPAIGN RP. // Men are born for games.

Our PLDT DSL line appears to have completely killed itself - it just died overnight a few days back, and hasn't come on again. I tried calling them up, and they said they'd get back to me and file a report.

They haven't gotten back to me, and I doubt that they ever filed anything.

Philippine Internet: Made of Fail.

Currently running on smartBRO - I've been meaning to get a prepaid dongle thing for myself for quite some time now, so I guess this is all right.

If there is one good thing, though, about not having a fast and stable connection that I can keep on for ages, it's that I can let my brain idle more. For one, I usually hit the PC right after I roll out of bed and check things/tag around THEN end up rushing to get ready to go. Now I wake up, roll around, eat a proper brunch and prepare my things at my leisure, since I get lazy at the thought of setting up my laptop just to connect.

Speaking of brain idling: I'm not sure if it's a sign of age or exhaustion. I was totally internetless on Friday night, which left me with so many options on what to do. I ended up doing nothing but flop around in bed. It was oddly nice. o_o

Maybe I should take that as a sign and start shaving away at the the things I think I need to do or think about but actually don't.

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Last full month of the semester has arrived, and not too much has changed. Students are a little less annoying, although I'm still having some trouble with the usuals. I'll write a longer entry on them sometime soonish, or maybe tell whoever wants to hear about it.

I was supposed to review the entire set of Philippine Speculative Fiction novels for the POC Review, but the project ended up falling through.

...sob, all of my effort. I suppose I can use it for something else...

Grad studies class is picking up again, since we haven't been able to meet each other nearly as much as we're supposed to. Got a report on Paradise Lost, which isn't really coincidental - my professor knows that I used the epic poem for my undergrad thesis. I've brought home the book I used as my primary source, and will be rifling through my notecards before I read through the whole thing to see if there's anything that I can use.

On that note, I've been meaning to go over my undergrad thesis and see if I can revise it and make it conference-paper or journal-worthy. Might as well: it'd actually be a waste to let all of that research gather dust.

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I occasionally get worried that I might be going too slow with my scholarly shenanigans.

Then I remember that I intend to do this my whole life anyway, along with whatever else I can manage to get done. Should stop belittling my own achievements too - that's always good for one's self-esteem.

Why society is so obsessed with people hitting "success" at a young age is beyond me. Sure, some of us don't have a choice, but let's admit it - most of us do, and just pretend that we don't. Seriously, guys: if you end up killing yourself in pursuit of your goals, there doesn't seem to be a point to it.

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This weekend was pretty nice, since I got to watch some sophomore Asian History sections duke it out in Bel Field via Kibasen, and I got to roll around with khursten even if she turned me into her slave labor at her office. Sunday was fun, too - went to the Esteban household for my cousin Jonat's birthday, and it's been a while since I've spoken to him and his siblings.

I now kind of want to invest in an iTouch or something like it, though. MUST RESIST AND SAVE UP FOR SPEAKERS/MONITOR/EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE/WINDOWS 7. ;A;

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RP eats up a crap load of my time, yes, and is sometimes more stressful than it is worth. I've met a lot of people through it, though, and nothing beats being able to log with and plot with people who truly matter to me. Plus, I've got to admit it: I RP for the game, not for the company. Anything can be done if it means pushing the game forward.

Still, I should strike a balance between the roleplay and my writing. I haven't been writing all that much these days.

...Which might actually be less of a problem created by RP, and more because of RL. This year was even crazier than last year, now that I think about it. I'm often too tired or washed out to do anything with myself at the end of each day.

Interestingly enough, though, I have started on several short stories. I didn't used to do short stories, as some of you know. Let's just see how things turn out. o3o

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Livejournal staff people have to stop breaking things that work just fine.

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Note to self: check your flist more often.

Where the fuck did all of these LJ posts come from.

40-80 every day, I expect. Not a couple of hundred in less than eight hours.

Also: BUMP IT GUYS. BUMP IT LIKE THE FIST OF AN ANGRY GOD. AND SUFFER THROUGH MY FAIL WRITING AS A RESULT.

This post was totally not an excuse to use my SAPRIZED RAIDOU! icon.

Totally not.