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Taking a break from work & Plurk to write this.
My lucky streak, in some ways, is not over yet: it turns out that I will not be going to school this coming Monday, to make way for some debate orientation that all Atenean freshmen are required to attend. My Gothic Lit report was also moved a week back, so I don't have to stress myself over it just yet.
That doesn't change the fact that the luckier I am, the more ill I get though. See, I was up at what's supposed to be my usual time now (as Plurk will attest to), but I felt like sicking up all the way until 10:30. I cried a little this morning because of the frustration of wanting to do my job and study but being physically unable to handle it properly. I've also only had one full meal today (my stomach couldn't take any real food until after lunch), and I'm still headachey/dizzy.
I love teaching. I love my classes, I love my colleagues, and I love what I'm doing. The schedule I've got, however, is just brutal.
I think I've been making excuses -- I've been saying things like it will probably take me a little time to get used to my schedule, or that my body's just hasn't been the same since the operation. Beyond all that, though, it might be as simple as me being overloaded this semester. My parents brought up the idea of me dropping one of my MA classes to lighten my load, and as much as it breaks my heart to do so, I may have to get rid of Gothic Lit. I seriously doubt that I can handle a graduate studies class after teaching for the whole day for much longer.
Will take this weekend out to dwell on things and make my decision.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
hamster_friend, let me apologize in advance if I really won't be able to continue with Gothic Lit.
Something tells me that I'd be able to hack this better if I didn't have to wake up so fucking early just to pop some stupid thyroid pills, but that might be an excuse too.
On other news, many of the folks down at the English Dept (myself included) are raising hell over the number of teaching days that we'll be missing out on -- Mark even went so far as to say that the administration should just let us know if they want us to teach or not so that we'll know whether to report to work or not. I have also discovered my new Special Ability: The Ability to Write A Substantial Short Critique of Any Literary Text or Critical Article in Under Thirty Minutes.
That doesn't change the fact that the luckier I am, the more ill I get though. See, I was up at what's supposed to be my usual time now (as Plurk will attest to), but I felt like sicking up all the way until 10:30. I cried a little this morning because of the frustration of wanting to do my job and study but being physically unable to handle it properly. I've also only had one full meal today (my stomach couldn't take any real food until after lunch), and I'm still headachey/dizzy.
I love teaching. I love my classes, I love my colleagues, and I love what I'm doing. The schedule I've got, however, is just brutal.
I think I've been making excuses -- I've been saying things like it will probably take me a little time to get used to my schedule, or that my body's just hasn't been the same since the operation. Beyond all that, though, it might be as simple as me being overloaded this semester. My parents brought up the idea of me dropping one of my MA classes to lighten my load, and as much as it breaks my heart to do so, I may have to get rid of Gothic Lit. I seriously doubt that I can handle a graduate studies class after teaching for the whole day for much longer.
Will take this weekend out to dwell on things and make my decision.
hamster_friend, let me apologize in advance if I really won't be able to continue with Gothic Lit.Something tells me that I'd be able to hack this better if I didn't have to wake up so fucking early just to pop some stupid thyroid pills, but that might be an excuse too.
On other news, many of the folks down at the English Dept (myself included) are raising hell over the number of teaching days that we'll be missing out on -- Mark even went so far as to say that the administration should just let us know if they want us to teach or not so that we'll know whether to report to work or not. I have also discovered my new Special Ability: The Ability to Write A Substantial Short Critique of Any Literary Text or Critical Article in Under Thirty Minutes.